A few weeks ago I was having a conversation with a friend about the tension of asking God in faith for something very specific yet posturing your heart that "His will be done." Well, I find myself in the middle of that tension this morning.
You see, we put an offer in on a house that to me is my dream home. It is on the very street that we have said, "we want to live on this street." It has a screened in back porch, a beautiful yard, 4 bedrooms. And the updating are things that I can do... paint, scrub and change fixtures.
So we asked for God to provide this home. After hearing the owners response to our offer, it is hard for me to imagine that this is to be our home. While praying this morning I read "Not my will be done, but yours O Lord." I am feeling the tension of knowing that God could grant us favor and mercy by giving us this home. Yet on the flip side recognizing that He is the All Seeing One. He is in control and knows what is best in working out His plan for our lives.
This is a very hard place for me to be in. The tension is revealing to see what my heart wants to cling to more: my desires and dreams or the dreams of the King of Kings. You know best, Lord.
