Rounding the bend...

"Did you hear that the final four basket ball disappeared? I have no idea where it would be???" I joked this evening with JP about how my stomach looks like a big basketball.

Today marked week 39 of being pregnant. We are excited and perplexed as to what is to come. We've never gone through labor, had a baby, nor been parents before. So what do we expect? This was our dinner conversation tonight. So many changes that we cannot anticipate.

I think Spurgeon summarizes what we are anticipating...

"It is our Father's business to mark the future. Our eyes are dim.

We cannot see tomorrow. But our Father knows all about tomorrow,
and He will be ready for whatever happens.

Therefore, I will wait on Him. I raise no questions.

I expect great mercies. "

Great mercies it is. We'll keep you posted.

Here's the nursery. It might look like a walk in closet, don't be alarmed but it is.

Feeling like a whale!

After a long day of work on Saturday, I arrived home feeling extremely tired with a body that just hurt. I have heard that pregnancy does that, but that hadn't been my experience thus far. Up until now that is.

I told Jonathan that I felt like a whale and couldn't imagine getting bigger. He was so kind to say, "Well, if that is the case than you are a hot killer whale." I never knew such words could sound so sweet but they did. (FYI... That feeling past and I just feel prego again. :)

We are rounding the bend to being pregnant. I work until March 20th, which is 2 weeks away. We have been giving three due dates which means the baby could come in 2 weeks, 3 weeks and beyond. I'm still rooting for April Fools Day.

UPDATE ON JP: This past week was on evangelism and boy was JP excited! The students went out on their lunch breaks to talk with folks in the community about their worldview and their understanding of knowing Christ. As JP was talking with a college student about Christ, this guy started crying and said that the one question he wanted to ask God was "why it took so long to get his attention." This was only the beginning of the conversation. All week long JP and others had some very encouraging conversations that made us realize that the harvest is plentiful and people are eager to talk about Jesus. This week has really spurred me on to begin praying that God would show me opportunities to tell others of Him, to trust that He will open my mouth to share and give me courage to take a stand. I wonder what is going to happen this week. hmmm?

God is so good and we are so loved.

Signing off for some time.

PC CLass on Parenting

A few weeks ago, Jonathan was sitting in a week long class on Parenting (he took lots of notes :).

One thing that was really cool was watching God move in a special way. All week long the professor spoke of the beauty of having a family. And yet to one couple, our dear friends, it was a bittersweet week as they long to have a family but are still waiting.

Here is the amazing thing~ the class pitched in and gave them a generous gift to continue fertility treatments. Watch the video of Jonathan leading the class in the presentation of this gift.

http://www.youtube.com search Allen and Dannette

oh yeah, the couple had no idea this was happening. It was a surprise!

Overwhelmed by love

It is officially beginning to sink in after 8 months of pregnancy that WE are having a baby. It wasn't the bulging belly, the awkward sleeping positions, the heartburn, nor the fact that I have seen a midwife more than 10 times. Reality sunk in when I received a baby seat and stroller from my sister-in-law in the parking lot of Panera. I couldn't believe I was taking home a stroller and a car seat. This is when it all began.

Throughout this past weekend in Ohio, we were lavished with love, hugs, words of encouragement, and many many baby gifts. I am still in shock at the generosity of all of our family and friends. I was reflecting on the journey today with the Lord about how we have seen God deal so gently toward us through the entire process. We have wept many a tears and have had others weep with us. We have prayed many a prayers for a child and have had others pray for us, especially when the pain was too raw to ask for a child, you prayed. And now we have rejoiced in God's steadfast love and faithfulness to give us a child and you have rejoiced with us.

As I was sitting on my bed this morning viewing our 1 room shanty (executive style) covered with baby gifts, each with a face of the friend that gave it to us, tears were streaming down my face. Our room reflected LOVE and support from so many. I couldn't believe my eyes to see how much we are loved.

And then to top it off, we went to our doctor's appointment to hear the good news that our son's kidney's are functioning and the cyst on his brain has been dissolving. I was relieved and thankful that the Holy Spirit kept me from being anxious, it would have been a waste of time and energy.

We are loved!!! Thank you for walking this journey with us, both near and far.

Love,

Megan

Thoughts on the Righteousness of Christ~ Jonathan Putnam

Jonathan is my hero!

(picture of him studying at Panera)

He just finished his the 1st half of the Pastor's College. I am so proud of him. I have watched God give him strength, endurance, perseverance and a greater understanding of how awesome our God is. And I never heard him complain about how much he had to study. I have been amazed watching him from front row seats. I just got a hold of one of his essays that he had to turn in for his professor, Jerry Bridges. I was really impacted by it.

Thoughts on the Righteousness of Christ~ Jonathan Putnam

I was deeply impacted by the principle: “Your worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God’s grace. And your best days are never so good that you are beyond the need for God’s grace” (Disciplines of Grace, 18). As I reflect on my journey as a believer, I recognize that I have lived many days in the two extremes of self-righteousness and despair: self-righteous when I thought I was doing well in the Christian life, and despair when I was reminded of my sinfulness.

For many years, my battle with one particular sin would determine my position on this spectrum. If I gave into temptation I would quickly find myself weighed down with despair believing that I was despicable to God. How could I approach him and ask for forgiveness—again? I would respond in various ways, all of which revealed that I believed my standing with God was completely dependent upon myself. Sometimes I would throw myself into the spiritual disciplines with renewed zeal believing that I must not be working hard enough. Sometimes I would become angry at God for commanding what I seemed incapable of obtaining. In anger I would either plunge myself into sin once again or numbly withdrawal from intimacy with the Lord by purposely avoiding time with him. On the other extreme, if I had successfully avoided this all-important sin for a lengthy period of time, I would become convinced that all was well between God and myself and self-righteously assume that I was now in a position to help others.

Both extremes, though different, share a common reliance on my own performance—either good or bad. Both extremes avoid depending fully on Christ’s righteousness for my standing before God rendering his righteousness experientially inconsequential. It is here that an understanding the imputed righteousness of Christ makes all the difference. If Christ is my righteousness then my standing before God is not dependent upon my performance. When I sin, his grace is strong enough to cover all of my sin. When I resist sin, it is his grace that has enabled me to do so, yet I remain a sinner who is still equally dependent upon him to cover my “socially acceptable” sins, many of which I may not even be aware of.

How do I go about applying this truth to my life? Reminding myself of this is essentially what it means to “preach the gospel to myself every day.” It is growing in the humility that rejects all my performance-- good and bad-- and chooses instead to stand upon the performance of Christ. On a “bad day” I must not discredit the grace of God by arrogantly believing my sins are too great to be forgiven. It is not glorifying to God to magnify my sin above his grace. On a “bad day” I must gaze at the holiness of God and be reminded once again how far I fall short. But instead of despairing at my revealed sin, I can run, once again, to the cross and be reminded that though my sins are far worse than I even realize, my standing with God is not based upon myself, but upon the life, death and resurrection of Christ. Every day was a “good day” for Christ and he lived for me.

Thankfulness

Thankful Thanksgiving 2009 List:

1. Getting to return to Ohio to see our friends and family! The brief moment was like a tease but gave us a glimpse into our hearts at how much we love our family, friends and church family!


2. Getting to see my sister Allison super pregnant! She was overdue with our first niece, Carleigh Grace, who finally arrived 4 days after we drove back to MD. I am so thankful that we both had the opportunity to be pregnant together!


3. We got a new car! God always seems to provide all of our needs, when we need it. We drove back to MD in a vehicle that does not have the "service engine" light on.


4. We were so thankful to come away from our break rested physically and relationally encouraged.

God saved you from being a "Feminist"

God has done much in my heart over the last few weeks. For months I have been wrestling with the role of woman. It started years ago with misunderstandings and sweeping assumptions that I was making that were not true. (I'll spare you the ugly details).

All of this came to a head in my life when I shared my life story with a friend. Her response was, "Wow, God really saved you from being a feminist." "A FEMINIST," I thought, "how dare she call me a feminist!" (disclaimer~ she wasn't calling me a feminist. But again I was making a sweeping assumption of what she meant. I see a pattern here.)

As a result of this conversation, I went home a little bit riled. Okay, really ticked off. But God has used it to bring clarity over all these issues and misunderstandings I have had been brewing about for the last few years. It was though He was asking me to lay aside all my "criticisms" and "sweeping assumptions of what wasn't said" and write down what I am passionate about and how I can use those passions for His glory. My entire perspective was changed. The light bulb went on.

God brought such clarity for me to do some specific things in this order~

1. To write down my understanding of Biblical Femininity, my passions for myself and other woman.


2. To search Scripture to see if my passions and understanding are aligned with God's Word as the ultimate authority.


3. To invite others to evaluate my passions and understanding of God's Word


4. To make corrections where I am wrong in my position


5. To ask my husband and others how I can serve our family and our church out of my passions for the glory of God.

All this to say, God has lifted a strong burden off of my chest that I need not carry, analyze and ponder anymore. The best part of all of this is that 4 days after the Feminist remark, the pastor taught on Proverbs 31. I heard firsthand from the pulpit God's desire to use woman for expanding His kingdom, through the family and community. I had a smirk on my face knowing that God really does care about me and wants to reveal Himself to me through issues like these.

So today I am off to make my list about the passions I have in serving our family and church.

Thank you Lord for bringing clarity to an area that has been so cloudy.